Me: Why God? Why? Why? Why?

God: Get Ready! Get Ready! Get Ready!

Patience and Temperance is something I’m still working on. We live in a world that demands immediate gratification and I totally see how my life has been catered to getting what I want when I want it. That’s what makes it so hard when it comes to even bigger blessings in my life. I almost assume that I’m supposed to receive the blessings right away or that something must be wrong with me.

But, as Joel A’Bell explained, we need to know the difference between what we want and what we need. Restrictions build character, builds temperance. God leads us in temperance.

“Remember how the Lord your God led you all the way in the wilderness these forty years, to humble and test you in order to know what was in your heart, whether or not you would keep his commands. He humbled you, causing you to hunger and then feeding you with manna, which neither you nor your ancestors hand known, to teach you that man does not live on bread alone but on every word that comes from the mouth of the Lord” (Deuteronomy 8:2-3)

As many have reminded me, God is not a God of confusion! At the moment I desperately feel like I’m in need of some things in my life and every time I go and think about it I end up with the same conclusion, ‘Why is that something in my life not to desperately seek after Jesus?’

I hear God yelling at me, trying to ingrain His message of how much He loves me in my mind, my soul, my spirit. He’s shouting at me, “Sarah! Get ready! Stop worrying about the future! I have so much for you, but you must be ready when they come!”

What is He wanting to do in you right now, Sarah? So much! Growth, Independence, Confidence, Happiness, Never Alone, Faith, God is my Source, Love, Patience! The list goes on.

There are so many things He’s wanting to do in me at the present time that prepares me so much better for whatever that’s coming. But these things even prepares me to face situations I face now! I’m in fact so thankful that God has given me this revelation and that He’s the most patient teacher and the most patient Father. He is willing to take me slowly on this journey so that I can understand the process of seeing myself become someone beautiful and someone whole that He’s made me to be.

From T.D. Jakes book ‘Power for Living’ he says this:

“Why is the blessing delayed? Why must I wait?… Am I in the right place at the wrong time, or the wrong place at the right time? Lord, what’s up?

Why does not merely say “Give me an answer.” It’s a demand, an inquiry, a request that you talk with me, that you dialogue with me until I understand your thought process. It says, “Communicate with me until I understand your wisdom, until I know how to deduce for myself and determine in my mind the things that you have deciphered in your maturity. I know that I may appear to be inferior and my intellect may be less developed than yours, but explain the situation and break it down to my level of understanding that I might be able to determine the matter for myself. That way, when you’re not around, I can equate and come to a solution or conclusion on my own without the help of others. I need to think in a decisive manner for myself that I may learn to be independent.”

T.D. Jakes also says, ‘The biblical perspective of life is not one of unfulfilled dreams or unanswered prayers. The biblical, godly perspective of life is one of insight, direction, hope, fulfilled dreams, and visions. Just because the vision tarries doesn’t mean God has changed His mind or given up on you. It could very well mean that the timing or the situation is not right for God to get the ultimate glory and benefit out of your trusting in Him. Hold on to faith even in the midst of the battle.’ [Power for Living – T.D. Jakes]

Maybe you feel that you had dreams that God has taken away, maybe you feel that God just doesn’t have big plans for you. I’m here to tell you with my personal testimony that that’s not true! The bible tells us that God has given us promises, that he fulfills our dreams and our visions. God is a God of perfect timing, He is a God that blesses you every single day. What is something that He’s blessed you with today? Learning to appreciate the small things and the every day things widens up your lens to see the things you can only see through faith. The life that you’ve been given is one to live to the fullest, one that God is walking with you step by step to guide you into who He’s called you to be.

“For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “Plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.” (Jeremiah 29:11)

Can I encourage you to turn your focus to how much God loves you every single second of your life, to his presence in your life. He’s been with you the whole time. Every time you feel alone, ask him to embrace you, ask him to show you what is unseen. Every time you feel like giving up, think about what He’s doing in your life currently, He’s always doing something in you to get you to where you’re going.

Trust in Him as He guides you to your destiny, your purpose, your dreams. It’s not easy to walk on this path without faith. Great faith is needed to continue on this journey and you can do it by partnering with Him. Ask him to carry you as you walk the tough parts of life, ask Him to lift you up when you’re feeling down, praise Him for all that He’s done in your day, ask Him to encourage you and to show you how much He loves you.

I believe that it’s not just holding on to hope but that we have a responsibility to remind ourselves each time we stumble, of the things God has already shown us and the things He’s showing us right now.

“Let the morning bring me word of your unfailing love. For I have put my trust in you. Show me the way I should go. For you I entrust my life.” (Psalms 143:8)